Ugh. I am so, so angry. I have the worst alarm clock dyslexia EVER. I'm always screwing it up and being late for something. Or setting it at 7:00 when I don't have to get up until 11:00.

The whole 7/11 deal would be annoying on its own, but the really bad thing is being late. It seems like I'm always screwing myself over somehow, by mis-setting that damn alarm clock.

Well anyway, you can see where this is going: I missed TV production lab today. Which, he's constantly stressing not to miss it. Which, now I not only look incompetant from messing up camera a few days ago, but I look like a jerk. Great.

Here's the real kicker though: I checked my alarm clock when I finally got up, and as far as I can tell, it's set completely correctly. So either it didn't go off, or I slept through it. And the sleeping through it is highly unlikely. So now at least, I can direct my anger at the clock and not me. It still sucks, though.

Well, I called the D & D guy's answering machine and left a supremely dorky message. Now it is time for the waiting game.

And as Homer Simpson says, "The waiting game sucks! Lets play Hungry Hungry Hippos instead!"

I hate how procrastinaty I am. I totally have to call my advisors for appointments, to make sure the system isn't screwing me any more than usual. I totally have to call this lady at the company where my dad works, because I applied for work there, and some lady called me about it on thursday.

I should've called the lady back on thursday.

I should've called the advisor a month ago.

And the procrastinatness is worse on projects I actually have to work at, such as programs. Or even my Telgard character. If I weren't so damn procrastinaty, I'd get all my things done and have gallons of time to goof off after that. But I don't. Even things I have fun doing, like writing fake news articles. I LOVED writing the last one I did. But I tried to write another one yesterday, and I just sat there at my screen for several years. Bleh.

And speaking of phone calls, Kevin found a website of some guy who goes to my school and plays D & D a little while ago. He told me about it, because he knows I've been searching (albeit a bit half-heartedly) for a group to try D & Ding for a few years now. Anyway, I commented, and asked about it, and the website guy totally told me to call him. I'm kind of creeped out to just call some stranger up and then go to his place, but I figure statistically, I'm more likely to be the serial killer than website guy is, since I solicited him, not the other way around. Part of me is tempted to back out and never talk to these people again, but I think, "Holy crap. I have no friends, after being here over 2 and a half years. And it's because I don't take chances. Take a chance, Phoe."

Though, I'm a little worried that they'll think I'm a loser because I was all like, "I've been looking for people to D & D with for awhile" without mentioning that I have only played once, it was online, and it was pretty crappy, because Kevin was the DM, and he sucks. What if I get there, and they are like, "You don't have your own dice???"

These are the things I worry about.

I'm feeling incompetant and thwarted.

I went to this meeting about internships in the Communication department last week, and I was really excited about it. If I got an internship over the summer that counted for credit, I miiiight be able to graduate on time instead of stay here an extra semester. Mucho exciting! The type I would need to get is an on-campus internship, because they require you to know less and you need one before you can get an off-campus one. The guy sounded like it was easy as hell to get an internship on campus (in anything but TV and Radio) as long as you have the required hours and GPA, which I do.

But then I realized, 90% of my hours are from Gen ed courses. I really don't know what the hell I'm doing in the two areas (radio or TV) I would want to intern at. I'm in basic production for both, and we've not gone far in either class. And I feel way behind in radio, because everyone else in my class has actually worked at the radio station before. So at this point, though I am somewhat more interested in radio than TV, I would probably go for a TV internship, where I'm at least on equal footing with the other students in my class. Except I have to ask the professor for my TV class about an internship now if I want one by summer, which I don't want to do, because I shot camera this last week and royally screwed it up, and I'd like a chance to prove that I don't actually suck, I was just inexperienced before then, just so I can be like, "Yeah, I'm worth having as an intern!"

And is completing basic production in radio or TV enough to actually get me an internship, even on campus? Do I have to take advanced prod? And if I do put off an on-campus internship in order to get more experience first, will I have to stay in school even longer than I estimated before this whole internship thing came up so that I can get an off-campus internship, which I NEED if I want one millionth of a snowball's chance in hell of getting a job after I graduate?

And I totally missed the meeting they held early in the semester that you need to go to if you want to work at the radio this semester because it was the same time as the most pointless, boring, stupid, lame, dumbass class ever, Hardware and Software concepts. We're curently multiplying 1's and 0's in the class right now.

....grr

Hmm.... I think I've lost my mojo. My blogging mojo. I never have the time to blog when I think of anything I'd like to blog, and then when I do have the time to blog, I'm too tired and don't blog, or give a crappy shortened version of what I earlier wanted to blog.

Yep.

me: I found this one blog that listed a lot of funny sites like that. I also enjoy www.ihumpthings.com

I feel really juvenile, but pictures of people pretending to hump things really make me laugh
Kin: lol...I can imagine. =P
me: I don't know why. I wish I were a guy now, just so that I could pretend to hump things. I mean, I still could, but people wouldn't know that I'm trying to hump things, because I'm a girl, they'd think I was having a seizure or something and try to help me, and I'd be like, "No, I'm just humping it." and it'd be really embarassing
Kin: LOL...So you wouldn't be really embarassed just gong around humping random things?
me: Well, it depends on who I was humping them in front of. It would be really embarassing in front of the christian high school friends who don't even let me say "ass" around them. But in front of strangers I'll never see again? I'd totally do it
Kin: Ah. You know another thing that really annoys me? People who tell me what to say and what not to say. I can't stand that. You should be like, "Fuck you! I'll say "ass" and hump shit if I damn well want to!" =P

I was depressed. About having no friends. And feeling awkward when talking to strangers. I mean, the best opening line I can come up with when talking to other people involves snot. Depressing.

.....Anyhoos, guess what? Talia's christmas gift for me came in the mail today! (yeah, we're procrastinators) Somehow, I even knew it was there, I had a premenition before I came to the mailbox. Anyway, it made me feel better. I do have friends, even if I never see them outright.

That was going to be a grand eloquent speech but I'm tired :P

Though I should be working on schoolwork, I decided to make a new comic.

Dedicated to Wanda! (because she's probably the only one who will get it)

Well, I'm done with my mock article and my radio assignment. Now all I have to do this weekend is write a program, edit a character, write a scholarship essay, and teach myself everything I was supposed to have learned this semester in Hardware and Software concepts.

Fun.

Is Bling Bling Hyphenated? (a conversation about my fake news article)

me: Right now I'm trying to somehow work the word "bling bling" into the article :P
me: Is bling bling hyphenated?
Sarcasmyst: Hm..
Sarcasmyst: I don't know?
Sarcasmyst: it may be a personal choice.
me: LOL. Yeah. Besides, the old guy who's going to grade it probably doesn't know either :P
Sarcasmyst: *chuckles* If he does, I will admit my undying love of Wesley in my livejournal.
me: LOL.... yeah. D'oh, I wish he was hipper now, just so I could make you confess your dirty secret
me: My friend Talia also has a point:

Me: Is bling bling hyphenated?
Talia: naw the people who usually use bling bling don't understand how to use a hyphen

Sarcasmyst: lol
Sarcasmyst: very good point, yes
me: This is sad. Writing's pretty much come to a standstill, and I'm just asking people if bling bling's hyphenated
me: Everyone keeps saying no, but my heart says, "Yes! Yes! Bling-bling should be hyphenated!"
Sarcasmyst: *laughs* Hyphenate it, what the heck.
me: Thank you
Sarcasmyst: No problem
me: You're an indispensible resource in solving my bling-bling problem
Sarcasmyst: *chuckles* I live to serve.
Sarcasmyst: and fill the universe with bling-bling

Oh, and I cannot program an alarm clock to save my life. Last week, I set it an hour late for TV class? Last night, I set an alarm two hours late for my 169 class today. Which was important, we had a major assignment due. I swear, I even accidently woke up at 6 in the morning and re-checked the alarm to make sure it went off at the proper time, and still, I set my alarm wrong.

This time, however, I had the insanely good luck that one of Cindy Jo's creditors* called me up a half hour before class. I have hated them for so long, but now I am grateful

_____
* Cindy Jo is the previous occupant of my dorm. And apparently she owes a lot of people a lot of money, because I get calls from people wanting her money all the time. I think they deserve to lose their money, though, if they are a freakin' year behind. Cindy could've moved like 800 more times since then, it's a pretty damn cold trail. And they should leave me the hell alone. Except for when my alarm doesn't go off. Then they SHOULD call me, to make up for their annoying me so much the rest of the time.

UGH. I'm so stressed out. This weekend I have to:

1. Teach myself everything we've learned in Hardware and Software Concepts up until now because there's a test on Tuesday, and I still don't understand any of it
2. Program classes for the next program due in La clase de diablo. AND, I'm behind everyone else already, because one of the three classes is one of the ones we should've done for program one, but that I never got done, because I am stupid
3. Radio Assignment #1. This assignment involves us recording ourselves DJing. It's supposed to be 3 minutes long. I have spent 4 hours altogether recording and re recording, and I still can't get a good take. And I want to kill myself every time I hear the ad in it, that goes, "You bet your sapsucker!' partway through.
4. 2 page long mock news article
5. This isn't school, but dumb Telgard wants me to edit my character again. I want to tell them to shove it up their ass because I'm so busy already, but I really would like to join. Argh.
6. Paper for scholarship entry. Again, not necessary, but the last time I applied for that scholarship (you can do it once per term), I totally got a lot of money and I kind of like money, so I really would like to write it.

Bleeeeh

Do you know that there are at least 3 Weezer tribute albums listed on Amazon.com? I say at least because I wasn't really finding them on purpose. There could be hundreds more out there, for all I know! I find it a bit weird. I like Weezer, but I can't see 3 tribute albums for them. I could barely see that for Nirvana.

Elvis, Elvis I can see that for.

Today has been decent thus far. First, we looked at our completed fake PSA's, and ours turned out pretty good for a "beginner/half-assed fake PSA."

We actually went a little different route than originally:

Me: *sitting around reading a book*
Mullet-Guy: "hey Phoe, what's up?"

*record scratch*

Me: *really freaked out/startled look at mullet* "Uh...not much"
MG: "Well.... uh... I was wondering... if you aren't doing anything friday night, do you want to go out with me?"
Me: *doubles over laughing* "I don't date losers. And I don't even talk to losers with mullets!" *leaves*
MG: Wow, that hurt

*cut to guy in front of a curtain*

guy: Everyone has their own style. You shouldn't ostracize people, because that guy in the mullet could be your kid someday.

*cut to a screen that says: "Mullets: it could be your kid."

I was very happy with how it turned out. I was especially pleased with how I hammed up the "surprised" look.

Also: today was radio production lab. We're still working on the reel to reel machine. It's like, stone-aged, as far as radio is concerned. It's like how the people in my ACS classes keep trying to teach me about punch cards.

Oh, and last night was fun. Wanda hooked me up with this message board for her university, and I left all sorts of weird messages on it. My favorite was this complaint I left about the Hand of Friendship that gives the finger at a certain angle....



On my campus. I was planning to act all surprised when the people responded, "What hand? There's no hand statue on campus..." but I checked the board this morning, and there's these HILARIOUS posts like "maybe it's near the refectory" or "Oh, that statue by the bus station?" "What is that statue doing with his hands?" They're totally convincing themselves they have a hand on campus, it makes me laugh.

And I'm also trying to misuse English slang and insult those filthy americans as much as possible on the board. And I'm telling people I'm from St. Albans, this town around the university. ....I get amusement many ways.

I'm also writing a news story for Media Writing on my hypothetical band, Piggle Sniff. All of our song titles are going to have brackets, like "I love puppies (and kitties too)." And they're all going to be tribute songs. And if you ask Wanda (the drummer in the band) why all of the song titles have brackets, she's going to say "I'll bloody smash YOU in the brackets, you wanker!"

If wanker is allowable in a school paper.

Anyway, I have to go now and program stuff.. BLEH

Inkblot test

Phoe, your unconscious mind is driven most by Imagination

This means you have a deep desire to use innovative ideas to enhance your life and influence the world around you. This drive influences you far more than you may realize on a conscious level.

Your need to be innovative drives how you look at new opportunities and the kinds of experiences in life you choose to have. On an unconscious level, the reason you may be so driven by imagination is your fear of destruction, the opposite of creation. When you are unable to create due to restrictions imposed by your environment or even ones you unwittingly impose on yourself, do you feel trapped or confined? You may find these feelings of unease only get better when you find another outlet for your imagination.

With such a strong creative orientation, you are willing to entertain a broad spectrum of ideas at any given time. The world is a fuller, richer place because you can contribute new ideas to any experience. Your natural curiosity inspires those around you and encourages them to come up with ideas they wouldn't have thought of without your help.

Though your unconscious mind is driven most strongly by Imagination, there is much more to who you are at your core.

I took all of these aiming to get Pippin, but I don't think he's popular enough to be a choice :P


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I've had a lot to blog about lately. Such as:

1. Considering going to Wisconsin in order to make fun of a guy with sideburns named "Regis."
2. Working on my first Radio Production Assignment
3. Realizing how smutty one of the songs I was going to use on said assignment was
4. Ryan of Fall, Glimmer, Sparkle, and Fade offering me some radio production resources
5. My mom's eerily morbid attempts to be the first person to tell people bad news
6. How mean my one ACS prof is
7. How stupid my other ACS prof is
8. My birthday is no longer shameful because I share it with a backstreet boy. Kurt Cobain also has my birthday, along with several cool people. Wanda's coolest person is Scott Joplin, which is pretty sad. Talia shares her special day with Dolly Parton and that middle girl from Full House (okay, okay she's got Edgar Allen Poe and Robert E. Lee going on too. And just to put the burn on Wanda, she's got the cool Joplin, Janis). My sister has the same birthday as one of the New Kids On The Block (okay, okay, she's also got Robert DeNiro and Davy Crockett). Sib used to lord it over me that Einstein had the same birthday as her and I only had a Backstreet boy, but she has one of the Hansons, so I would really make fun of her for that if we were still friends. My Dad has the same birthday as Arnold Schwarzenegger, but the best my mom's birthday could muster was Charlie Sheen (which is still light-years cooler than Scott Joplin). Pablo has the same birthday as Jakob Dylan, John Malkovich, and Donny Osmond. Well, two out of three ain't bad.
9. Realizing I keep coming to Hardware and Software concepts late because I thought the class started 15 minutes later than it actually does.

I could go on about each one of these at quite some length (which I did do for the birthday thing, whoops). But to go into detail for all of them? Too much work.

I'll Bring Home the Turkey if You Bring Home the Bacon says:Well, we all have our different thought processess. =P
Feeding line caught tuna to a neutered bodhisattva says:Yea. I'm glad no one can see mine or I'd have been carted off to the looney bin by now
I'll Bring Home the Turkey if You Bring Home the Bacon says:lol...Me too.
Feeding line caught tuna to a neutered bodhisattva says:And they'd be separate looney bins where we could never talk to each other and we'd be sad
I'll Bring Home the Turkey if You Bring Home the Bacon says:We _would_ be sad.
Feeding line caught tuna to a neutered bodhisattva says:awwww *crys about the imagined sadness*
Feeding line caught tuna to a neutered bodhisattva says:I think I'd live life on the run instead. Like, eating grass and shrubs and stuff to survive.
I'll Bring Home the Turkey if You Bring Home the Bacon says:Sounds good to me. I never did much care for padded walls.
Feeding line caught tuna to a neutered bodhisattva says:I wonder what shrubs taste like
I'll Bring Home the Turkey if You Bring Home the Bacon says:Probably...shrubby.
Feeding line caught tuna to a neutered bodhisattva says:lol....

wouldn't it be funny if they tasted like chicken?
I'll Bring Home the Turkey if You Bring Home the Bacon says:LOL...Yes it would.
Feeding line caught tuna to a neutered bodhisattva says:I would totally eat shrubs if they tasted like chicken. I bet shrubbery is a lot cheaper than chicken. Well, if you bought it it would probably be expensive, but if you just snuck into peoples yards and nibbled on their shrubbery I think it would be cheap
I'll Bring Home the Turkey if You Bring Home the Bacon says:I'll bet it would.
I'll Bring Home the Turkey if You Bring Home the Bacon says:Hey, maybe it does and it's just that no one knows because they've never thought to eat shrubbery before.
Feeding line caught tuna to a neutered bodhisattva says:I totally bet it does. You should go out and test our theory right now and come back and tell me how it went. Try to avoid poisonous shrubbery
I'll Bring Home the Turkey if You Bring Home the Bacon says:I don't think there are any shrubs around my house.
Feeding line caught tuna to a neutered bodhisattva says:ah. We have some shrubs but they're dying and buried in snow. Like, we keep putting shrubs in this one place and they keep dying and we keep putting them back. I think somone in our neighborhood's eating them or something ;P
I'll Bring Home the Turkey if You Bring Home the Bacon says:lol...Maybe so,
Feeding line caught tuna to a neutered bodhisattva says:I really think we should just put grass there but my parents just keep buying shrubs
I'll Bring Home the Turkey if You Bring Home the Bacon says:I guess they like shrubs. =P
Feeding line caught tuna to a neutered bodhisattva says:I guess. Maybe _they're_ the ones secretly eating them

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