I had a dentist appointment at noon today. I realized at the last minute I couldn't go because I had to direct at TV-10. Which, I should know by now that I have signed my soul away to TV-10 from 11-12:30 every weekday that I don't already have class, why would I let anyone schedule me for anything at that time?

But I get thrown, because while I always direct at wednesday, I don't always crew any other days. They pick me sometimes and sometimes they don't, and I pretty much just have to show up at the whim of whoever fills out the schedules. Which isn't so bad most of the week, but Mondays suck because whoever does it doesn't do it until right before time on Monday. So if you're even a possiblilty on Monday you have to show up whether you're doing anything or not, just to make sure or else you will be scheduled without your knowledge and you look like a big douchebag for not showing up when you're supposed to be there. Here's an idea: schedule a week in advance, people.

Anyway, I didn't think I'd be crewing today, but I was, and so I had to hastily reschedule my dentist appointment.

And another note on directing: I probably shouldn't be. Because I don't seem to be getting any better. Though I like directing, I turn into exactly the type of person that I hate when I direct. Easily freaked out and surprisingly angry. It must be no picnic for whoever is under me. I even start to act high handed with my superiors. I was freaked out about there being no operator around for camera 2 and started pestering the production director about it until he was finally like, "They didn't show up, Phoe. What am I supposed to do? Pull them out of my butt?" Which, although funny, was rather scary.

I think you can argue that EVERYONE is insane. And not just part of the time. ALL the time.

--My film prof. On... people being insane.